Sequins and handbags

I went on a shopping spree yesterday because Express was having a sale, and I can't turn down a good sale, an inkling of a desire for something, nor can I make color choices.

I bought 10 sequined tank tops. That's right. 10.

I have a problem.

To top off my shopping spree, I went to DSW because I had at ~$75 gift card (it was actually from returning some previous items - so it wasn't any money that I hadn't already spent). Instead of just getting the one black bag that I had wanted, I ended up with a red one as well. Because I have no self control, and I cannot make color choices (as previously stated).

Yesterday cost me $320, all of which went on credit because I'm currently nearing "broke".

This is because my $3000 surgeon check cleared the same day my $1000 credit card payment from my trip to Sacramento/Jamaica processed. It hurt.

Needless to say, I'm feeling a little light in the pocket. Hopefully B will give me a bit of the money she owes me, Steel Pans will give me the money he owes me (by my birthday) and maybe my paycheck won't look like the government was wearing a black ski mask when they decided to take out my taxes.

I'm also running low on vacation days, and considering I have many unplanned vacations lined up in my head, this is probably not the happiest thing that could happen. I'm considering combining Florida (to visit fam - I'm talking to my cousin right now whom I haven't spoken to really in about 3 years, since both of his kids were born) and Atlanta (to visit ATL) into one trip, which seems doable. I don't know WHEN though. Isn't that always the question?

Last night I went to a meetup dinner. I was not drinking, and therefore I was not incredibly social, although I tried. I feel like I was the only one asking questions. The girls were all quite nice (the three I got to talk to), but there wasn't that instant friend connection. I guess you don't always have that. We'll see if I actually form real friendships with these people.

I could give more detail about the dinner, but that's all I really have.

I've so far completed 12 days of the 30 day shred. My diet is going. I don't hate my life JUST yet, but I'm also not REALLY seeing results. Probably because I half ass the workouts. I have no upper body strength and it often feels like someone is stabbing daggers into my upper thighs when I do squats, but whatever.

I'm hungry. I've been fucking up at work a lot lately because I spend 7 hours doing nothing and then the 1 hour I do spend doing work, I'm not focused, so little mistakes keep occurring.


Basically, life it blah right now.

Oh and to top it off, the feelings I have for EPT and the lack of reciprocation is making me sick to my stomach.

Fuck chemistry (organic, inorganic, and otherwise!)