I have a new job, and even more time on my hands

It's been a long time, blog world. I really planned on getting back to this a lot sooner. In fact, I don't even know if I'm fully back just yet because I have barely anything to talk about, but I thought - hey, while I have all of this time, I might as well start blogging again.

I guess that prompts the question "why do you have all of this time, KG?" Well blog world, I have a new job. And why do I have a new job? Because I was fired for some MAJOR bullshit after taking a three week vacation in Asia.

I'm sure there should be more detailing for both of those statements (why/how I lost my job and how was Asia). However, I'm not really at that point where I don't get bitter about the job situation and well - I don't have the mental capacity to pull the best pictures from my millions of facebook uploaded photos. That being said, I want to apologize once again to Mo for 1. Ruining her camera on day 1, and 2. Pretty much ruining our full out party chances by being a completely ridiculous blackout drunk on a Thai Island. Yes, I will tell this story at some point, but yeah, it kind of made it more difficult to Mo to relax and trust that something wasn't going to happen that would threaten our trip, again.

Goddamn I'm  being super vague in this entry, but I will get there, I promise.

So here's a rundown of what's been going on in my life.

• After being laid off, it took about two months to start my new job. I took a $10K pay cut, which hurts my heart and I've been borrowing my money from my parents far too much.
• We're planning on moving back into the old house after last year's fire on June 17th.
• In the mean time, my friend Rudi, has moved to New York from Baltimore and I am temporarily housing her until she finds a new place, so we will be spending a lot of time together and even more time exploring the city looking for apartments.

Yesterday, we went to look at an apartment in Park Slope and her potential new roommate should be my new best friend. I just want to hug him and play card games and pickle things with him all the time. We did all of the tourist crap in the shitty weather for Rudi's friend who drove her up from Bmore after the Great Googa Mooga festival got canceled (honestly, thankfully because my mom and I were dragging our feet about trudging through wet park mud).

 After Times Square, we went to Katz's deli and it was brilliant. It was PACKED and I played super stalker and took pictures (covertly) of the attractive, but short-ish security guy.

We had delicious Pastrami and pickles. And then of course, we went to Big Gay Ice Cream for amazing treats.

• I've probably been drinking too much lately, but the last two times I went out - I didn't black out. This is an amazing step in the right direction.
• I watch TV at work - and so I've been watching a ton of hulu lately which is just...well that's my life now. I do literally NOTHING at my job, and it'll be like this for the next few months.
• A plan for Jamaica is in the works for July, but pretty much no one can afford it right now, so that's a bummer. Oh well - we'll figure out how to make it happen.
• I need to start exercising again because I've been eating like it's going out of style for the past 4 or 5 days. I say this as I heat up some pastrami and prepare to gorge myself on its deliciousness.
• I've been to a lot of strip clubs lately - apparently they've become my thing. I will tell you two stories about them over the next few entries. They're pretty good and they make me happy and giggly, so I guess that all works out.
• It's already 1pm which is a good sign. 4 more hours of doing absolutely nothing and getting paid for it.

I've decided to end this now. To Be Continued...

I'm baaaaack

So I know it's been a long time. Like a really long time since I've blogged. I also know that the last few times I DID blog, it was nothing good. It was additionally, quite cryptic, which is not all that great for a blog where people have no actual insight into your real life unless you tell them. I'm ready to put that behind me though.

I can't say that I'm incredibly motivated to blog yet, but I think this is a good start. Considering that I never actually take a lunch break at work anymore, I am taking my sweet time writing this post (I actually made it to work on time today).

I've been pretty reclusive for the past few months. I've gone out here and there....

I just took a 4 hour break from this post...will have to continue tomorrow.

I thought it might get better

but it doesn't. Or at least, it's not yet. I'm digging myself into this hole that I may never be able to get myself out of.

All I want is to be alone right now. I've pretty much alienated anyone who I could spend time with for various reasons, and I get to constantly be reminded that 10 seconds can ruin a life forever.

I'm really going to miss Steel Pans, and something tells me that this post should also be a farewell to B as well.

Yes folks, it is that bad.

"This too shall..."...well in my experience "hold tight, the ride's only going to get rougher" is a bit more appropriate, because passing is something that this will not be doing any time soon.

Oh, and I've been meaning to write about my house fire, but there never seemed to be a good time. Now, I don't know if there ever will be. Still no internet at the new house - maybe it's better that way. I feel out of touch, and I kind of want to be. Also, I don't think I'll actually be "touched" any time soon.

Fuck (or don't, I suppose).

Silently crying at my desk...

I'm currently waiting for some of the worst news a person can get. I'd say it's top ten on the list of things you don't want to hear, maybe even top 5...or at least in my top 5.

Needless to say, things haven't gotten better since the fire. They just keep getting worse.

Failed literary scholar

Reading Laura's blog left me wondering where I stood in terms of what I've read compared to what I probably should've read by this point in my life...and I really haven't read much. Maybe one day I'll make some headway in this list.

 

The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
Harry Potter series - JK Rowling

Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper LeeThe Bible
Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
Great Expectations - Charles Dickens (Listened to this on tape when I refused to read it for school)
Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien (My daddy read this one to me when I was a kid)
Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
Middlemarch - George Eliot
Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald 

Bleak House - Charles Dickens
War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
Emma - Jane Austen
Persuasion - Jane Austen
The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini (Did I read this, or just watch the movie?!)

Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne (Silly old bear)
Animal Farm - George Orwell (I read the script and worked on the play, but didn't read the book itself)
The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery (Don't remember this book at all, but I know I read it!)
Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Atonement - Ian McEwan (Again, I can't remember if I read it or just saw the movie)

Life of Pi - Yann Martel
Dune - Frank Herbert
Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon (Great book!)

 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
Brave New World - Aldous Huxley (One of my favorites)
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
The Secret History - Donna Tartt
The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold  (Again, I can't remember if I read it or just saw the movie)

Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
On The Road - Jack Kerouac
Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
Moby Dick - Herman Melville 

Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
Dracula - Bram Stoker
The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
Ulysses - James Joyce
The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
Germinal - Emile Zola (Did a project on him, but never read his shizz)
Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
Possession - AS Byatt
A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
The Color Purple - Alice Walker 

The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
Charlotte’s Web - EB White
The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (I'm pretty sure at some point I read some of these)
The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad 

The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery (In English AND French)
The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
Watership Down - Richard Adams
A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
Hamlet - William Shakespeare (I've read almost every other Shakespeare play - save for the majority of the histories - but not Hamlet!)
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
Les Miserables - Victor Hugo (Did I ever read this, or just saw the play/movie? Hmm...)

Hiatus...

I know I've been gone for a while, a lot is still going on - and I currently don't have internet at my new house unless my dad tethers his phone, which isn't ideal.

I promise I will fill you in.

Miss you....

It's just surreal.

Look. I was going to post something profound last week. I was going to post about my trip to Florida and to Atlanta. I had big dreams for a post today, but honestly...I just can't find it in me right now.

 Half of my house burnt down yesterday. My parents and I are physically alright. My house is not. Yes, I plan on sharing the story with all of the details because it's something that while I don't want to remember, it's something I will never forget. So for right now, I smell like a barbecue pit, a good portion of my family's belongings are not salvageable, I'm living in a hotel for the next 10 days until the insurance company finds us a temporary apartment for the next 6-12 months while my house remains "unlivable" and I still haven't accepted that this is real life.  

But it is...
 

This is what is left of my kitchen. The laundry room and third floor bathroom look about the same

And what the first floor bathroom and most of the other rooms look like

I will have more pictures in my next post. Right now, I'm just trying to stave off the random outbursts of tears that remind me that this is real.